Doubts

Do you ever have doubts about God? Sometimes I do, in a way. Occasionally there will be little thoughts in the back of my mind saying "What if He isn't real? What if you're talking to yourself when you pray?" Things like that. But I undoubtedly believe that He created the world (I mean, how could this amazing beautiful and complex earth make itself?), so I believe He made everything... Except sometimes doubts creep in about whether he exists or not. I'm sure that doesn't make sense to anyone reading this, but oh well. It makes sense to me.

What always makes me feel completely awful is if I'm praying, and those thoughts creep into the back of my mind. "What if you're just talking to yourself right now?" I always try to dismiss the thought because I feel like.. I don't know, if I don't let it come into the foreground of my mind that God won't hear it? But of course that's preposterous. So a few nights ago while I was praying, those thoughts crept into my mind again, so I addressed them with Him. I said that I was sorry that those thoughts creep in there, but I didn't know how to make them leave. I just talked about it for a little bit. Then once my prayer was over, I turned off my light and laid down to go to sleep, and the following words formed in my mind:
'Everyone always asks for evidence of God's existence, but what evidence is there against Him?'

How revolutionary! Everything points to the existence of God. Everything. Birds, the sky, grass, the complex way humans are designed, blessings, the simplest microorganism, stars, and a million other things. But what things point to lack of evidence of Him? The only thing I can think of is that He is not visible. But just because you can't see something, doesn't mean it doesn't exist. Especially when EVERYTHING else above, below, and on the earth might as well have a huge neon sign that says "GOD EXISTS!"